Las Locuras de una Bruja

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(Source: barefeetanddreams, via itsabout-freakin-time)

Manic depressives are more likely to kill themselves at the height of their mania.

I’ve been pretty manic lately..

just a rant, not sure it makes sense…

i just wanna feel like breathing is okay,

that it’s safe to stay away,

to never point and blame

anyone else for my problems,

it’s not like my problems

are the only one’s that’ve ever made me feel like 

less than I am.

too often what I am feels like a crime

against everyone I love…

and being the crazy that I am, 

I want to defend them all from me 

and that’s where these

confusing, fucked up feelings

come from 

and I just wanna say “game over.”

guna go stick my head in a stove… er

oven,

and call it good.

no reason on earth 

a she like me should 

have such a hard time

with just existing and getting by.

most times, I get stuck 

with nothing left to say, 

just an open mouth,

tryna dislodge this ball from my throat.

hoping what I would say will mend it all.

but sometimes I feel it’d be best

to allow for suffocation

and collapse.

and when I wake up in hell, I’ll ask

myself why

I didn’t just see the good for what it was

and why I didn’t appreciate my heart for what it does:

continue beating while broken…

such a valuable lesson in strength.

to not give up despite the length

of my journey.

Yeah, some good learning, coming from the heart:

keep doing what you do,

even after you’ve been torn apart.

there are moments when i just wanna cry until i drown in my own tears.

Sometimes…

i feel like i should withdraw from all relationships until i am well enough to healthfully engage in them.